Sunday, December 7, 2008

Some Days are Better Than Others

I'm watching a Hallmark movie with my sister right now. The narrator in the movie just said "Hope is a hard habit to break." It made me wonder about my level of hopefulness. How do you know if you're a hopeful person?

Today it has been three months to the day since Matt's accident. Overall I think I'm doing pretty well, but of course some days are better than others. I know I'll feel some degree of sadness every day for the rest of my life, but I feel like I've made peace with Matt's death. I don't know why my life is the way it is now, but I know it is the way it is.


Kristin Coppee said...

Brenda, you're an amazingly strong person. You have to be to go through something like this. It seems so unfair to me sometimes when I think about it. How come you have a great husband who has to die in an accident and I had a terrible husband the first time around that I had to divorce? Why didn't God take my bad husband vs. your good husband? I've thought about this many times. I have another friend whose husband was also killed in a car accident about eight years ago. She and I have often told each other, "I'd rather be in my situation than yours". She'd rather her husband passed than have to go through a divorce and I'd rather take the divorce because I feel I couldn't deal with the grief of losing a husband who was good to me.

I know that life goes on and you get through it and grow stronger and amazing things happen and I know amazing things will happen for you. I didn't know you very well before Matt's accident, but since I have come to discover how spiritually and emotionally strong you are. And I am very humbled.

Brenda said...

Kristin it's so ironic that you said that because I was just thinking exactly that just days ago. I would rather have to survive his death than survive a divorce. He was a great husband. I'm grateful that he was the kind of person where others could see that, too.